My Mom & Dad are going to Toronto today to check into the hospital, get everything ready before he goes under the knife tomorrow. I’m feeling a lot better about it than I was yesterday. I came into work and as I got out of my car, the most wonderful smell hit my nose.. It was like cool, wet earth, the smell of nature, of fall, and of the contented sleepyness of the world, getting ready for winter.
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Well my dad goes in for surgery on wednesday. I’m kinda nervous, don’t know what’s going on, don’t know how I’m supposed to feel. I’m 3000 miles away and although they say that it’s safe, and everything looks good, I’m dying inside because of the “what if’s”. What if something goes wrong, and I never see him again? God, life isn’t supposed to be this way, I should be at home, with my brothers and sisters, not raging silently on my keyboard at work, tucked into my cubicle, not making waves in my cubefarm.
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I’m getting the hang of this template stuff. I’ve just about got the main page done, and the other ones will follow. I also want to set up 2 new blogs. stay tuned.
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i’ve been trying to create a template so i can migrate to mt but it’s more complicated than it looks. i’ve never done stylesheets etc etc, and given the hard core geek i am it’s hard to admit that i’m having trouble with something technical… i’ll get it eventually, but i don’t have the time to pour into what i need to do, let alone extras like my blog :/
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i’m reading a book called ‘cyberia’, it’s an older book, maybe 10 years old, and it’s a bit of a chronicle about the early days in cyberspace, but really, it’s more of a treatise on what the global hallucination called ‘cyberspace’ really is. as i was reading, i realized that this is something i’ve been really interested in – the history and culture of the internet. i’ve read a lot of similar books lately, including ‘hackers’, ‘insanely great’, ‘crypto’, ‘the cathedral and the bazaar’ and other similar texts, and i’m constantly fascinated. i wonder if this could be a possible career or at the very least subject of study once my high-tech career is over?
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