missed opportunity

Posted on by kylar

so lately i’ve been realizing how often i have an interesting thought that i lose.. like if i’m driving in my car, or in the middle of the night, whatever, but i’ll think of something, and at the time i’ll think “i need to look that up” or “i’d like to write something about that”, “i could use this to write a song” and the worst: “i need to remember this for later”. which, of course, i never do. it makes me wonder how many amazing thoughts are only fleeting, taking up temporary residence in our minds, only to be gone when we go to make them permanent. regardless, i think i need to get myself a handy-dandy notebook so i can jot down my thoughts as they come. hopefully i’ll have more to write about too :)

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motivation

Posted on by kylar

at work i’m involved in this huge project that half the company is working on, and i just got re-orged, and among all this i’m suffering a real lack of motivation. in the words of the immortal oddtodd:

“the next thing you need is motivation. this is like a *problem* for me too. i mean, if i’m sitting, watching tv and i lose the remote control, i can’t even get motivated to change the channel. i could be stuck watching animal planet all day. mep!”

i feel like this a lot lately. i have a really hard time getting motivated when i get there in the morning, so i surf, read email etc until lunch, hoping in vain that i’ll fall through some black hole where i’m really motivated. it never happens, but i keep hoping. on rare occasions i get super motivated and can work like 20 hours in a row, or at least for a the whole day at a super high production level. other than that, i struggle on a daily basis just to get out of bed :) anyone else deal with this on a regular basis? i’ve been wondering if maybe i’m just really lazy? if all the time i spent in grade school, high school and college (not to mention slacker jobs) not doing anything and just gliding by has finally caught up with me. then i realized that my life has become just like office space. i’m unmotivated to work really hard, only enough not to get fired. someday, perhaps i shall find my muse.

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