at work i’m involved in this huge project that half the company is working on, and i just got re-orged, and among all this i’m suffering a real lack of motivation. in the words of the immortal oddtodd:

“the next thing you need is motivation. this is like a *problem* for me too. i mean, if i’m sitting, watching tv and i lose the remote control, i can’t even get motivated to change the channel. i could be stuck watching animal planet all day. mep!”

i feel like this a lot lately. i have a really hard time getting motivated when i get there in the morning, so i surf, read email etc until lunch, hoping in vain that i’ll fall through some black hole where i’m really motivated. it never happens, but i keep hoping. on rare occasions i get super motivated and can work like 20 hours in a row, or at least for a the whole day at a super high production level. other than that, i struggle on a daily basis just to get out of bed :) anyone else deal with this on a regular basis? i’ve been wondering if maybe i’m just really lazy? if all the time i spent in grade school, high school and college (not to mention slacker jobs) not doing anything and just gliding by has finally caught up with me. then i realized that my life has become just like office space. i’m unmotivated to work really hard, only enough not to get fired. someday, perhaps i shall find my muse.

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