Yesterday in church, we started a really cool series called Detox – it’s about solitude and cleaning out your soul. Part of the message involved a 5 minute silent time, a time of meditation. It was really cool, and I remained in my seat, just looking at this series of candles. There were 3 candles on a triple holder and another, 4th one slightly behind and to my right. After service I took a picture and I’ll post it if I can.
But the thing that I found interesting was that all four candles were burnt in different amounts. The triple holder had 2 on each side that were partially burnt down inside, and the one in the raised center was burnt down almost all the way, with maybe an inch or so of wax left. The two outside ones had burned down in the center, so you couldn’t see the flame, only the light glow, through thick candle walls. The one on top had burned down almost all the way, and was nearly flat. You could also clearly see the flame. I was thinking about how when people decide to follow Christ, it’s like starting a flame burning inside them – and the longer, or more fierce the flame burns, the more of your walls and old self gets burned away – and once enough of it is gone, then the world can see that flame burning inside you.
Then I was struck with some other thoughts. There was a group of 3 candles who were on the same stand and all burning at different paces. Then, there was a single candle on the right and back a bit on it’s own stand – but that candle hadn’t burned down as far. That got me to thinking of whether being with other Christ-followers helps your flame to get better and bigger? Does being with others help you learn and live more fully in Christ?
Then I realized something. The candle that was on it’s own hadn’t burned down anywhere near as far as the other 3, but occasionally, you could still see the flame. I’ve heard from different people that often, when someone becomes a christ-follower, it inspires them, and they become (excuse the cliche)’On Fire’ for God. They are full of passion in their belief. This candle seemed to represent someone who was new to Christ but so full of belief and love and emotion that it still showed to people. Would their flame burn down inside and start working from within? would it get smaller until it had burned down the walls? Would it become invisible except for an almost unnoticeable glow until Jesus had done his work?
Lastly, I was struck by this thought, and it was possibly most like my own personal situation. What if I walked up there and blew out one of the candles? The candle would remain there, partially illuminated by the other candles near it, but not burning or progressing itself. The walls of the candle would stay the same. More importantly, the candle would still exist and contain the POTENTIAL to burn. All it takes is a spark or flame for it to continue it’s burn. If one candle near it suddenly flared up, it could potentially ignite it, or if someone picked up one of the other candles and held it close, it would reignite.
Right now I feel like that. I’m not ‘on fire’ with passion like I have been in the past. I feel like I’m drifting, and seeking. I know that the potential still exists within me, but I don’t feel like God is shaping me right now. I wonder among us, what kinds of things are like that slight breath, the lightest wind that can blow the flame out, until something comes along and sparks it again?
Has anybody got a match?